Day 4: Wrestling With My Thoughts

How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? – Psalm 13:2

From Dear Dad…

I’m so tired of wrestling. When does it end?

Neil T. Anderson writes in Bondage Breaker that it’s important for us to know and believe who we are in Christ. Fran’s told us that, too. Knowing and believing are two different things I suppose.

I believe the easy ones:

  •  I am God’s child
  •  I have been bought with a price: I belong to God

I struggle, however, to believe that:

  •  I am a saint
  •  I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins
  •  I am free forever from condemnation
  •  I can find grace and mercy to help in time of need

Fran’s crazy if she thinks I’m going to stand in front of the mirror and say that stuff out loud.


I felt like an idiot. Picture this for a second: I was standing in front a mirror saying things like, I am God’s child. I have been chosen by God and adopted as his child. I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins. I am free from condemnation.

After I took the focus off myself and stopped thinking about what others would say, the truth really started to sink in. The more I said it, the more I believed it.

I read in a book somewhere, or heard someone say, I’m not sure which one, that you are what you think. It’s true. If you tell yourself enough times that you can’t be forgiven, then you’ll never allow yourself to receive that grace, especially from yourself.

Give it a shot. Stand in front of the mirror and tell yourself who you are in Christ. Who cares what other people think. Just do it. It’s freeing, truly.

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Sundi Jo Graham

Sundi Jo is an author, speaker, and small business owner, making her home in Branson, Missouri. She blogs at on life, faith, and health. Sundi Jo believes you can't live life without laughter, and that Dolly Parton is the greatest singer ever. You'll find her engulfed in the social media world, spending time with friends and family, hanging out in flip fops, or dreaming of being a "Chopped" chef. Find her on Twitter (@sundijo).